• I counted the same calories dozens of times each day.
• I ran endlessly and trained for three marathons to lose weight.
• I tracked food types on portion control notepads.
• I worked one-on-one with nutritionists, therapists, and joined Weight Watchers. 

… I made a full time job out of monitoring, moving, and eating to help my body “look good.”

But in this obsessively mental state, my body was borderline anorexic for four years, and holding onto more weight than my frame naturally needed through 5 years of emotional (binge) eating.

And during the 40 pound swing of the scale: at no point was my body thriving, peaceful, or anywhere near easeful. 

Eventually, just shy of a decade into the ordeal, I exhausted myself to the core. I claimed mental defeat on the subject.

I fired my mind from controlling of my body.

What I discovered in this process of “un-obsessing” and “un-controlling” my mind on the subject of food and exercise has transformed my body (and mind!) for the better.

For the past decade, my body has been sustainably in harmony within itself. I eat naturally. I feel emotions directly. I move joyfully. 

And most valuably, I have the peace of mind and body that I always craved during the years of overthinking.